Did studying Eastern philosophy help keep you grounded when you were travelling with Madonna? I just imagine, being so young in this exciting, glamorous life…
It always did, and more and more as I developed and grew in that experience. I was touring with a major superstar when I was 21. I was completely lost in it. I wanted to be just like Madonna. I was always comparing myself to her: how can you not? She was my big, famous sister. I was trying to be as pretty as her, as glamorous as her, have nice clothes like her. Here I am, [thinking] I can never have those kinds of clothes: Dolce and Gabbana morning and night. Maybe some day, but not right now! I was constantly trying to compare myself. … But I learned. There was enough time in between working with her that I could go out, do my own thing and develop myself. Every time I came back to do a big tour, it was such a reflection to me of where I was at. Pretty soon, like the last time I toured in that capacity, I felt such incredible love for the audience: that oneness. I didn’t feel I was up on stage. I just realized that’s what it was all about – that’s what I wanted it to be about. I wasn’t into being on stage and being worshipped for myself – doing it as a character role is one thing. But having already gotten out there, my awareness had really changed a lot.
You weren’t on her last tour. Is that change in awareness why?
I think inside I knew it was coming, but I was also pregnant and having my baby. I remember thinking, “I don’t think it’s going to happen.” I remember in that moment, I already missed it: “I’m not going to be on another Madonna tour!” But she’s a person who moves on. She fills a space and moves on. She has a lot of people who work for her, and this is part of the natural experience. I can go down my path and do my thing. I keep it open: when you work with someone for so long you keep it open to work with them again. Maybe not in the same capacity: I’d love to do more benefits and big events, and support her in that way.
Source: Stuff Magazine
Donna is a wonderful person with a great heart and I really hope she'll join M. again on tour!
When she talked about Madonna just moving on and filling that persons role in her life it reminded me of the way her brother Christopher talked about her in his book. It makes me wonder is she is more of a bich or a tortured soul. I think maybe she learned that if she stopped living because of people then she would hurt more than just learning to let go and move on. So stop lingering on people if they cant be there or wont be there try your best to still be happy. Dont let them take that away. So in a way I admire that resiliance but at the same time am sad about that.
I LOVE DONNA!! She managed to be so down to earth despite dealing with the Queen all these years. She is part of Madonna history more than anyone else. Plus she is such a beautiful woman!